Study & Work

When time comes close to graduation, everyone is getting on their nerves by various job opportunities. Does first job matters? Perhaps it didn't really affect much in this fast changing era, where social mobility is high. But for those who's standing on the cross road, it really matters, as it reflects his/her choice and projected path over the next few years.

What are determining factors of choosing a job? Money, Interest, Environment, Career development and bla bla bla. For an adult who's getting near to live on his own for the rest of his life, money's importantce is getting more and more obvious. Reality is harsh. But how would it affect the pursue of interest? How much compensation is required for the tradeoff? Do we, undergraduates that are getting near to graduate, study just for the sake of future, or for the possiblity of advance into higher level in academy, or for the broader option and social mobility? Is study what you like? Is work what you study? Is work what you like?

Choosing job may seem an exhausting thinking process, but would you rather not be given choices? Compare to those who never have chance to get in ivory tower, undergraduates for sure have a stronger competitive edge over them. But if we mis-turn this edge, we would be in a worse situation than them. Would we?
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If you were to rank important characteristics in teamwork among "Capability", "Communication", "Commitment", how would you do? Which should comes first? Communication or commitment? I could only sure that capability doesn't matter as much as commitment and communication skills.
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Time is never enough, especially in final year. But since it could neither be created nor destroyed, the only thing left to do is time management and proper scheduling. I am not a fans of scheduling since young as I have good memory. But now I am forced to adopt this habit because loading memory need energy. After going through all classes, it's near to exhaustion. This piece of reminder somehow serves as a external pushing force, to fulfil what's planned before. It reminds me of consequences of not following it, things drag and jumble up and turn into mess, rushing this and rushing that, having risk of missing this and missing that. But schedule can never be perfect, if I can follow it for about 80%, I would be quite satisfy. Though in most cases, I extend it till late night to complete, in which, I have to sleep during class to compensate. Is it wise? I really have no idea. Perhaps I would sleep in class also even I got enough sleep. ...

Thoughts

Happy convocation, bro. Hope you will have a good start.

Is it any psychology theory to explain why human tends to think a lot more during long journey, as both space and times pass by? It is always in such familiar context that I regain my sense of thoughts.

Competition shapes competency, perception shapes reality, am I ready to self deceive myself to believe that - I have enough courage and intelligence to find the path I wish to take?

Exhausted

Just very very very very very very^10 busy.

Wednesday:
Night - Rehearsal
Midnight - Resume edit
Super midnight - Work on project micro p source code

Thursday:
Morning - Lecture
Evening - Out to Orchard to interview manager
Night - Citibank Recruitment Talk

Today:
Morning - Rush project source code
Afternoon - HRM meeting, only have 10 minutes for lunch, Project assessment.
Evening - Nap 1 hour in i-hub, meet FYP prof for 1 hour.
Night - HRM meeting to work out tutorial 2 questions.

I am already exhausted even without studying core subjects, putting efforts into fyp, design...In the future 2 weeks, 3 CAs are coming, design assgn is going to start, prof comm assignment, hrm report, just don't know when am i going die...couldn't even afford one day in a week for gym, what the ...

Luckily heard something meaningful that has helped me to make decision on not going for bank sector. Hence the rest of talks doesn't seem so attrative that more. Job in bank's just doens't look like going to suit me, and I am not going to force myself to suit in. For me the sacrifice is just too high. It's not just about workload and stress, it's about job nature and politics. Although contents presentated on the talk looked perfectly ok "superficially", there are a lot of things hidden inside. I could smell the fakeness covered in the thick blazer. Ya the MA was great in presentation and seemed like having great working life, but it was also quite obvious he was under tremendous pressure by his boss and colleagues. See how long he had to stand witout grumbling before he presented, if that's called usual business practice, that's so inhuman. See how all the so-called "great colleagues" responded after he finished his speech, there was a hidden frequency in clapping sounds. See how employees responded when the higher level of person came. Ya I can't avoid from the cruel world but I don't want to be in the most cruel environment, unless money can compensate all. At least for me right now, it's still not true.

People says certain amount pressure is good. Yeah, right. But that isn't a justification for being abuse for over-pressure, being in bank sector or in HRM. Yeah there is a lot to learn, but from whom do you usually learn the most? Enemy. So although you learn from him, he's not saviour. No matter how much MH could make me learn in HRM, there is no justification to make a 3AUs subject as heavy as 10 AUs. It's just not fair, and is a abuse of credit system. Many engineering graduates don't want to be in engineering field after this, yeah right. So by this "common sense" is it valid to force everyone to work for this subject much harder than other core subjects? So other professors should just cut-short their courses and give students time to concentrate on this? Yeah, world is not fair and you are not given chance since born. Is that a reason to make you abuse me more? No.

Some people may thank MH for he may "enlighten" them or what, hence all his other actions are justified, hence he is saviour who want to wake people up. Nonsense. All people at high level is master of human psychology, and we are just part of his game. I learnt a lot from him, because he's my enemy. As what he say, this is a war. I guess he would like me to headshot him rather than to thanks him.