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Welcome to my virtual home. This is a little private space for me to put my thoughts and share my feelings since 2005. Due to my wide range of interests, there are perhaps too many tags. I would explain some of the less obvious tags:

"About Life" is really about how I have been pondering about life and what enlightenments and paradigm shifts I had experienced.

"About Psi" contains most topics about happiness, optimism vs pessimism,
confidence, comparison, pride and prejudice and other psychological aspects.

"About Logical Thinking" is about my own way of interpretating and explaining
certain issues, aiming to debunk (or create?) superficialness of them.

"About Ideology" is about my thoughts on big concepts like freedom, justice,
fairness in society and religion.

"About Society" is more about my observations about the society, often through interactions with different peoples.

"My Country" reveals my frustration, critics and hope
on my homeland - Malaysia.

"My Little Pieces" has more short posts though mostly are written in Mandarin.

While I do have some posts on book reviews and business, I am planning to
separate them into author-specific and content-specific blogs. Stay tuned.

Enjoy your reading!

Friday, August 22, 2008

适应

新丁受训,首先的挑战就是适应环境。现在已是工作训练的第二个星期,却还是有些不适应,尤其是密裹成粽子进洁净房。上星期训练第一次进去时,赶着穿连身衣险点扭到大腿。现在渐渐懂得怎么穿了,却还是嫌多了一层纱布顶在鼻子下面痒痒的。

接下来的挑战就是狂吞资讯,连番炮轰的XYZ实在让我疲于接受。工作+交通+家务+管理+计划差不多消耗了我大部分的时间和精力,但为了省钱和修行,我会尽力不在公司吃上一餐。好渴望有八小时睡眠的幸福,但身体也似乎慢慢适应了少睡两小时,只是偶尔会在公司钓钓鱼。幸好现在还是训练期,呼呼。(自我安慰:能辛勤耐劳的,才会享受悠闲)

但要有优质生活,需要照顾的不仅仅是自己的起居饮食,还要吸收无数的常识、过滤大量的言语和寻找提高效率的方法。有时候,实在是很累……幸好还可去慢跑和在这里发牢骚。

好了,加速适应和继续前进!

Saturday, August 16, 2008

Travelling


A man travels the world over in search of what he needs...
and returns home to find it.
- George Moore

Living in Utah, US

Disclaimer: Please stop reading if your green monster starts overtaking you. (I'm joking, :D)

Initially I wanted to describe my living experience here as living experience in US, but slowly through daily conversations and observations I came to realize that living here at Utah is unique, as unique as living in any other state in United States perhaps, because US is just too vast to be stereotyped.

If you aren't NBA fan, you might not even have heard of Utah, which is definitely not like metropolis New York. Quietly surrounded by gorgeous mountains and beautiful lakes, it have everything exactly opposite to Singapore: big, large, hugeeeeeeee!

Utah Lake

For example, Walmart is huge. The first time we saw it, we were so excited to take photography there. That day was Thursday. And then Friday - Walmart again, Saturday - Walmart again, Sunday - Walmart again...I feel a bit embarrassed to say that we took picture with Walmart. They all look the same even though they are all at different places. (Non-tourist: What so big deal!) Paiseh, we are still tourists. :D


It's convenient to have so many Walmarts nearby, if and only if you drive. MI4 = find small groceries stores within walking distance. It's cool to drive here with opposite orientation, different rules and better cars!

Chrysler (I drive slightly less cool model, ^^)

And about my temporary fully-furnished house that's so comfortable to stay: Two cozy rooms with queen size beds, closet room, living room with soft couch, kitchen, landry room, garage.

Example of Oakwood housing (I can't show mine without camera)

I guess I better stop here before being hunted by green monsters, :D. Though I have my own worries, as everyone do. 'Til next time.

(FYI, time here is GMT -6. So the time difference with MY, SG which are at GMT +8 zone is 14 hours. Just know whether to +14 or -14, you will know time at both sides.)

Thursday, August 14, 2008

煮食修行

很久很久没有下厨了,妈妈说我终于重出江湖,哈哈,没办法,在大学期间只能偶尔煮爽,缺厨具少时间没心思,久而久之就没意思。在这里可不同了,自己煮一餐大约一两块,在外吃至少四五块,如果要省钱四周游玩,只怕不会煮都要硬着头皮学煮了。除此之外,这里食材多元,厨具齐全,身边能偷师的人多得是,如果不在这段期间尽量学习和提升厨艺,那可真是浪费了。

我能煮,但已不说自己很会煮,毕竟煮的不过是家常菜,尤其因为我家特殊的背景,什么东西都一锅熟,很多时候不能拿出来献丑。唯一能说的就是,与同辈能煮的朋友比较,我自小受过的锻炼不会被比下去。(老爸语:“能够自己煮来吃,是生存的重要技能。”)

反正就是自煮自乐,有心就好。第二段修行,从现在开始。

Friday, August 8, 2008

Exciting arrival in US

I am finally settled down in this totally different place after two days of hassles. Life here has been really exciting with friendly peoples, beautiful landscapes and comfortable home asides from a series of unfortunate events.

Firstly a boring 18 hours long flight from Sg-Tokyo Narita-LA-Salt Lake turned everyone into a lazy and sleepy pig. And as expected, upon arrival in LA, I was detained to be registered specially for a reason. (You are making a wrong guess if you relates it to my look, ^^) Thanks Louis for his fine message and I did estimate at worst I would miss my flight.

It wasn't an unpleasant experience as you might think of but just paperworks, echoing the sigh from the young ABC officer. We even talked about which airlines' flight attendants look most beautiful (FYI, he give his vote to SG airlines). However, the process was much longer than normal because of the stupid fingerprint scanner or software or computer or whatsoever. It was a little bit frustrating to repeat "left hand first, right hand next, look at the cam" for about 20 times while you are catching the plane.

When it's done finally, all passengers were gone with me alone standing rooted to the alien ground. I have to admit I was directionless at that moment but forced to act calm to deal with weird attentions from other officers. Hey, I am not the culprit of making myself late, you think what? (Of course this is a monologue, so as below)

Miss flight? No no no... sure die. Connecting baggage? Hmm...Should I check in my luggage? Don't care la, give. Check info board. Where's my flight no? Ahh...go out. Streets? Damn. Go up. Where's my gate? Freak out. Ask. Oh, terminal five. Where? Go down and take shuttle. Go down. There's no sign board with number of 5!? Ask. Cut through streets and parking lots? Don't care liao, all out running. Terminal 5 arrival. Ok. Go in. Check info board. Gate 61 - Boarding. 15 minutes more. Security check. Can I bypass the crowd? I am afraid I am late. NO!!!? Grrr........ Fine. Take out laptop. Remove shoes. Hold boarding pass. Every second counts! Wear shoes. Take back laptop. Drop. Damn! Sigh. Run. 50, 51, 52, 53,... 60-69 turn right. Ok right turn and open door. What the hell? Why so long a corridor? Run. No one else. Pak pak pak pak. All my running sounds. I'm tired. Where's the end? Go out, escalate up. Run. 64, 63, ...finally...there's someone I recognize for the first time in 3o minutes. Last few minutes boarding. Finally, I've made it. Is it all scripted? Phew........................

(Although I've made it, I think I could done something better by telling Ramnik that I don't have my phones roaming, as different to most of us, so that they don't need to have extra worries for unable to reach me. Anyway, it's over.)

After the near miss of flight, luck was yet to shine on me, or, to my luggage. Both of them were still at LA, delayed. Good. It had been already 30 hours since I last bathed, and I would continue to suffer for an unknown period with uncertainties looming around. Furthermore, being the last to be dropped off because I live the furthest at south and to be late to the departmental welcome dinner weren't really big deal but weren't relieving either.

And so when I finally back to my home, it was already 1030pm. I waited for 10 minutes. There's no sign that my luggage were on the way and I had to call delta for information. Oh, both are found and will be delivered to your address by 230pm tomororw at the latest. What a fake voice! I couldn't spare much excitement for this voice recognition and generation programme but go on to check it online. Wait a minute! Why my address was wrong? Sigh, Debbi gave the wrong address at the airport's counter. I should have check it myself, instead of allowing them to give the information. But what to do if the service provider provide the wrong piece of information? Suddenly I felt like only myself is reliable. Sigh.

I called again to change the address and got the update that the delivery company would deliver it around 3 A.M. 3 A.M. then
3 A.M. la...I was exhausted. But it was so confusing whether they would deliver it or not, as different operators said incoherent things to me and another friend Pei Wen who also had one lugggage delayed. Luckily it still came at the midnight, right before the sun rose, at 530 A.M. So happily and refreshed that I went on to unpack nicely and planned my schedule, until to be picked up at 9 A.M.

So today I am extremely tired, not because of jet lag, but because of a mere sleep of less than 2 hours. I just found that my hp spoilt, and so my last option to take photo was gone too. Why must life be that exciting huh? Though it's unique experience anyway.

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

回到从前

很高兴能够在相隔如此久之后,再次找回从前那种熟悉的感觉:信赖、真朴、温馨。的确,那曾是大家最开心的回忆。当初一个错误的抉择,几乎毁了所有,我承认我实在不懂得如何面对,你也不懂得如何应付,大家都太嫩。幸好,我们都想要找回那种感觉和朋友间彼此的信赖,才会在经历重重波折之后,仍然回到原点。尽管仍有一点担忧,但我相信以后的我们,依然能够维系这种友好的关系。好朋友,谢谢了,让我们一起加油!

离去前夕

星期日终于搬去新的家,星期一终于上班,而今天再多等一会,就要启程去美国。一切接踵而来变化的太快,快得连感觉都难以捕捉,更别说细细品味。一如刚搬进去的家,才把肮脏粗糙的地板抹得干净顺滑,享受不到几天,就要告别。再如第一天上班,糊里糊涂就成了最迟抵达公司的新丁,以最“声明”的方式成了最出名的人。

而那天晚上的饯行餐,朋友们尽管忙碌都抽空出席,照理我应该成为主角和大家谈笑风生,但是上完班接受过量咨询后已是疲累,让朋友费事费心搞又有点不好意思,加上迅速变化中的激动、焦虑、离愁,我故意选择了角落的一旁来坐,为的就是可以在熟悉的声音围绕中静静地休息一会。尽管这样做让聚餐丧失了一部分意义,但想一想其实我本来就习惯了主办而不是参与,聆听而不是倾诉,所以还是让我在临走前趁此机会从旁重温朋友们惯常交谈的方式吧。反正,能来就是心意,我能感受到的。

在这样急速的运转中,感觉是喜忧参半的,尽管憧憬美好的未知,但离开熟悉的已知多少会有点不舍。

感谢所有朋友的祝福,也愿你们生活愉快!

Saturday, August 2, 2008

Worries

Worries have been looming around for few weeks. It's not because I will start work soon, nor that because I will need to adapt to a new environment, but because of an unsolved question. At this starting moment of life, I can't avoid to search the answer or answers. Trying hard and yet failing for so many times in the past means that I need to try harder to fill this cordial hole, by inspecting every life aspects, setting life targets and planning life schedule.

Time, money, career, relations, health, needs, wants, responsibilities, knowledge, experience, exposure...I'm going to get overwhelmed but I will keep looking for a better answer, a better path.

Time to go for last morning jog in NTU.

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