We walk from the past

Some nights a few months ago, we were filling our stomach with BK fries after 3-hour course, and now at the same place, about the same time, with the same hungry stomach and same fries, it's just me.

It's a fact that path diverges when time flows, as each of us actually bounds to head for own direction, and to live a unique life. Hence it is unavoidable that, in different stages of life, we walk along with different friends.

I used to view this in a slightly dim colour, in tandem with a more passive mentality about life that time. But after a while I realized that I am not going to change anything no matter how much I dwell on the past. What is past, is past. What I can do, is at present. What I can affect, is future. How I view the past actually affects my present, and thus affects my future. Hence I have to change the way I see things, especially past things.

It was sad to hear recent more suicides of NTU students again, and whenever I hear about it, somehow an image of my old friend will appear in my mind. Come to think about it, it is now close to a year since that incident. Time, really flies. Looking back, the reason still remains mysterious.

I will never understand how depressed and despair a person is when he is thinking of giving up two important assets: himself and his future. Only one thing is certain, that sufferings to him at that moment are insurmountable. And hence he chooses to escape in the way that brings greater griefs to those remain.

It's very irrational indeed. But if a person can stay rational, he won't give up hope and bury himself together with the ashes of the past. What is past, is past. What can be changed, is future. Choices, are still abundant, if we open our hearts and free ourselves from the shackles of the past.

Past, becomes a shackle if we think of going back to resume or prolong the journey. We can't do it. What is past, is past. We can't delete it, we can't hide it, we can't change it, we can't do anything about it. So why bother so much, if it is not for helping us?

We only live once, and time is the essence. Walk from the past, live at the moment, and go for the future.