寻梦 | Finding my dream

我决定不再随遇而安，尽管这已是我最擅长的；我决定放弃风平浪静，尽管这曾是我最向往的……因为梦想不从随遇而安中爆出，也不在风平浪静中诞生。寻找梦想，原来是人生里最迫切的问题，而我却在立冠五年后才醒悟。

突然间内心有一把声音：“没有梦想，就去找啊，为什么懦在原地，任岁月蹉跎，难道期盼梦想从天而降？金都不可能掉了，更何况是梦想？”以前信服的各种妥协的借口，瞬间变得像纸灰般渺小。

有些人早就找到自己的梦想并不断朝它前进，有些人不清楚自己的梦想而逐渐满足于生活的各种享受，而我是介于中间的寻梦者。二十五岁才开始，尽管比早已有梦想的同辈迟了好久，但总比浪费余生的光阴好，如果现在再不找寻，恐怕我会逐渐迷失。向梦想的天空飞翔需要无比的勇气，如果始终怯于坠落的风险，就会逐渐适应于地上的拥挤，被各种枷锁锁着，就算有再美丽的翅膀，也不可能再飞翔。

虽然不能回到过去提早找寻，但过去的各种经验无形中帮我突破了无数障碍，克服了不少懦弱，现在的我在生活各个方面已经没有任何重大的恐惧，只要我找到我想到的，我就可以全心去追求了。闯出去，就算失败了，也会甘于平凡；没闯过，什么也不是。

当我开始去收集数据，去了解为什么有些人有梦想，为什么有些人没有……我才逐渐发现，原来像我这样走到这一步仍然没有梦想的人，他们当初选择的想法，和我是那么地相似。而有梦想的人，尽管想法可以天差地远，当初都是用过好一段时间来寻找。所以只要肯认真地去找寻，总会找到的。都说“人因梦想而伟大”，寻找梦想自然而然就是人生最迫切的问题。

我现在没有，所以问题很严重。既然问题很严重，就应该尽早去解决。我已经决定了要走出平常路走进“歧途”，而很欣慰的是，我得到了所有家庭成员和好朋友的支持。起飞的日子，正在倒数。

I have decided to walk out of the ordinary safe path and go on exploration, for my dream. I realize that I cannot keep telling myself that I will meet my dream without seriously and actively seeking for it. And upon realization, all my previous reasons of holding myself back vanished within seconds. Dream will not come to me if I do not seek for it. The chance of dream coming by itself is as rare as hitting the lottery jackpot of one billion.

Some have found their dreams since young and are paving path towards them, while some have not found their dreams and end up being contended with what is given by life. I do not belong to the former group and I fear to join the latter group. To start finding dream at at the age of "quarter life" perhaps is a real crisis as compared to those that have found theirs, but not doing so could turn it to become "full life crisis", where I would spend the rest of my life without much meanings, or worse, without comprehending the meaning of life.

Though it is impossible to time travel back to start the search earlier, I do not suffer from wasting too much time. At least my past experience have helped me to shape my confidence and have empowered me in various areas, to allow me to venture into any field that I want without much difficulties.

When I start to ask around, I have come to know that those that are like me share a similar way of thinking and decisions that lead us to reach this stage of life without a dream; while those that have dreams, have spent quite some time in searching for them. Hence the key is to really search for it, search for the dream first before any other things in life.

I do not have one now and I feel terribly uncomfortable with it. So I have made up my mind to find my dream, and I feel so glad that I have the full support of all my family members and close friends. Soon I will soar to the sky and roar, or fell terribly. But I don't care.