我不明白为什么他们如此自称,他们不是白搭车的乘客,亦非乱驾驶的司机,而是来往马新载客的服务员。或许因为他们介于黑白之间,老板的公司有注册而他们却没纳税,不是的士司机却不分日夜等候载客,在灰色地带独霸一方吧。但在接触过十来个司机后,我却没在他们身上感觉到丝毫霸气,反而有时为他们把二十四小时都卖了而感伤。
只是这怜悯的感触很快就淡化了……当我知道曾经他们可以一个月赚上五六千,在特别往来新加坡的蓝色护照还存在时,在新加坡对马来西亚人实施九十天里只能逗留六十天的措施之前,在同行竞争还没有如此激烈之前。日夜进出长堤和移民厅官员打交道的这一族,或许有上千位,每天就这样载送机场客或工厂客,偶尔在关卡停车开后厢时会和人挥挥手,大概是遇见相识的同行吧。而这千人中,据说有大半是来自霹雳州的,让我深有感触。自殖民时代锡业没落之后,霹雳州著名的出产恐怕就只剩柚子了,那么的润甜,却大都销外了……
在我认识的十多位司机里,有不少和我一样都是工作岗位上的菜鸟。以此推论,他们有一半以上是暂时性的,只有少数是做了很久的。或许工作的不稳定和工作时间的不规律使这一行的流动性特别高吧。而社会不断超速发展,各行各业的流动性也会越来越高,有谁可抗拒去适应呢 ?人与人以后的聚合离散,或许会变得比花开花谢的周期更短,有谁能看透而坦然地活在当下呢?
人总是更恐惧未知,但社会急速的流动和变化并非没有好处,至少我们有机会接触更多不同的人、听闻更多不同的事情、看见更多不同的角度;从而探索出自己的道路。每一个人,都有自己该走的路,命运不会为我们安排目的,却给予每个人不同的起伏曲折……正如他们当中或许没人会预想过会走到这一步,而我们之中又有谁能肯定自己不会走到这一步呢?我尽管只是乘客,但我并没有停止学习如何认路,也没有停止观察他们各有各提醒乘客的细心,因为我希望万一命运让我走到这一步时,我还能从容地应对。
有时当我在柔佛做到晚上七八点,在他们来载我前,我总想上车睡觉算了;但到他们到达时,我却总又禁不住会和他们聊聊天。或许因为他们都比我年长十多二十岁,社会阅历丰厚,可以让我吸收的咨询比较多吧。我还记得第一个载我的司机,并不太喜欢说话,驾车也有点手忙脚乱;但之后的司机,我都略懂他们的故事。
Uncle A:他才做不久,但驾驶技术不赖,有一次长堤塞车时他硬是驾进罗里道狂超数十辆车后抓紧稍瞬即逝的空档驾回轿车道。这技术应该是他之前驾货车送面包练就的吧……有一次聊天得知他之前因机缘巧合别人介绍,而负责供应面包给新山各地,一度生意还做得不错,可惜自九七风暴后就开始下滑,直至这次萧条后终于周转不灵。我总觉得他貌似一个香港中年艺人,不过我不知道那艺人的名字,只是两者遭遇大不相同,与妻离异后要养起五个子女,我在他身上嗅到的……是对于生活磨难的苦苦支撑,一如他之前支撑已经下滑的面包生意十年那样,默默地承受和耕耘。只是,默默承受未必能守得云开,苦苦耕耘未必会带来收获,生活在这一点上,是否太残酷了一点?
中年人B:他十多岁就离乡到外自力更生,跟到一个香港师傅学烧腊。从他栩栩如生的描述,我才知道老一辈的师傅的训练和要求是那么严格,不少人受不住而半途而废,而他一开始也经常捱棍挨骂,花了半年的时间才掌握到基本的烧烤技术。他起步比一般的学徒慢很多,但到最后却只有他和他的师兄掌握到师傅的真传,龟兔赛跑的故事又一次重演。九七印尼排华时,他师傅需要个人去印尼掌厨,可惜他胆怯没答应,结果他师兄去了,现在命运各异。他最终放弃继续烧腊,而跑到了这一行。曾经在行情好时他赚到不少,可惜容易赚的钱容易花,不消几个月的花天酒地就用光了。如果当时他能理性一点,把那些钱存起来,或许他可创造出更好的境遇?机会,大多数人总会有一回吧,只是若不好好把握,再回首就只剩叹息了……不过他仅一个人,还活得蛮好吧,作为业余的钓鱼发烧友不时出海钓鱼。或许他应经看透了,心境豁达,对于生活其他方面都不计较,言语总是不乏幽默。(只是可怜了那些鱼,呵呵。)
鲨鱼C:他把自己叫做这一行的鲨鱼,因为他大小通吃。他做了有二十年之久,可说是很少见的吧。每次坐他的车,他总是忙着接电话。他说:“熟客多,没办法。”要大小通吃,自然会有牺牲,而他选择牺牲的就是他的假日包括新年,一年365天24小时没有一刻停歇。“什么都假,有钱最实际。”我无法不认同,只是也无法不纳闷:对钱缺乏安全感会否在某一个程度上扭曲了人性,导致人嗜钱如鲨鱼嗜血?一年里没有把一天留给家人或朋友,难道就是生活的意义?赚到的钱全为自保,难道就是赚钱的目的?鲨鱼是独居的,人不是。
中年Uncle D:他曾是熟练的手机喷漆工,在新加坡的摩托罗拉做了蛮久,但随着人工喷漆逐渐被机器喷漆取代,他的技艺就丧失了价值。他尝试说服一位砂捞越开喷车漆厂的朋友去新山合作开厂,因为手机喷漆比车喷漆更考技巧,但不成功。偶尔他会谈起年轻时他泡马子有多厉害,让我这个后辈汗颜……听起来他在这方面还挺自豪的。
他们都是替一个老板打工的,可惜不久后就听说这个老板因为赌输签下一屁股债而逃走了,而他们一个月多载客的血汗钱就这样不见了。作为非正式员工,好处是不用纳税,坏处就在会有这种风险。世界极其复杂,但我始终相信善良的人是占多数的,因为我们都不过是要继续生存生活的普通人,想要逃离生活困苦的平凡人……
或许对你来说,他们的故事是再平凡不过,但在我眼里,这些故事却比那些混乱腐败虚伪不知所谓的政治青蛙小偷们的丑事真实得多……
对于未来的路,我仍在困惑;对于未来的方向,我仍在寻找;但哪怕再困惑,我也不会放弃寻找,我相信有一天我会找到的……与生活中每一个萍水相逢的朋友,哪怕是再短暂的相会,如果用心体会,都是互惠的。
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Welcome to my virtual home. This is a little private space for me to put my thoughts and share my feelings since 2005. Due to my wide range of interests, there are perhaps too many tags. I would explain some of the less obvious tags:
"About Life" is really about how I have been pondering about life and what enlightenments and paradigm shifts I had experienced.
"About Psi" contains most topics about happiness, optimism vs pessimism,
confidence, comparison, pride and prejudice and other psychological aspects.
"About Logical Thinking" is about my own way of interpretating and explaining
certain issues, aiming to debunk (or create?) superficialness of them.
"About Ideology" is about my thoughts on big concepts like freedom, justice,
fairness in society and religion.
"About Society" is more about my observations about the society, often through interactions with different peoples.
"My Country" reveals my frustration, critics and hope
on my homeland - Malaysia.
"My Little Pieces" has more short posts though mostly are written in Mandarin.
While I do have some posts on book reviews and business, I am planning to
separate them into author-specific and content-specific blogs. Stay tuned.
Enjoy your reading!
Friday, May 8, 2009
霸王车族
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Labels: About Society | 世事人情
Saturday, April 25, 2009
小小想法
想当然而……我觉得
投资就好像出海捕鱼,你永远得冒着没顶的危险,所以每分准备都不能少,每份收获都是恩赐。
投资就好像武术,宗派林立各有特色,如何海纳百川自成一派最重要。
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Labels: About Business | 财经贸易
Book: Wise Investing Made Simple
[Wise Investing Made Simple - Larry E.Swedroe]
I am putting what I understand from this book, by picking up meaningful sentences and restructuring it accordingly. I don't know if I am putting too many sentences here, but it's a good book that worths your time, so go borrow or buy and read it.
I drafted my originial summary last October accordingly to Chapters.
This book is pretty easy to read with good analogies.The author has strong belief in "passive investing by building a globally diversified portfolio". He builds his arguments around two central themes:
1. Efficient Market Hypothesis (EMH)
- Efficient market is a market in which trading systems fail to produce excess return and it is difficult to persistently exploit mispricings. Everything currently knowable is already incorporated into prices.
- Even the market is not perfectly efficient, it's close to. It is not impossible to uncover mispricings (incremental insight), but cost of efforts are likely to exceed the benefits.
- Successful trading strategies self-destruct because they are self-limiting
2. Risk and expected return should be positively related
- Value stocks are stocks of risky companies, hence it provide large and persistent premium over growth stocks to compensate the risk.
- High price reflects low perceived risk, and thus low future returns should be expected.
From these, he thinks that
- Active investing is loser's game. The odds of success by competing against the collective wisdom of the market are so low that it is imprudent to try. Of course there are survivors, but is it by skills or by chance? It's purely random. Outstanding performance does not persist. As an evidence, the top list of funds or top fund managers are different each time. Will you believe that there are coin-tossing gurus?
- Active investing is myth created by Wall Street because broker earns no matter you win or lose. Brokers make the overall game a negative sum game. They made active investing exciting but investing, however, was never meant to be exciting. It is meant to be about providing you the greatest odds of achieving your financial goals with he least amount of risk.
- Most market forecasts are based on economic forecasts and economists' forecasting skill is about as good as guessing. Investors should treat economic and market forecasts by so-called "experts" (gurus) as investment graffiti - the only value they have is as perhaps entertainment. And "You make more money selling the advice than following it." [Counter? Isn't him one of them?]
He also debunk the following myths:
a) Stocks in the long run will surely earn - Stocks are risky no matter the length of investment horizon. And that's exactly why its returns are high. [Counter? It is not about how long or how short, it is about timing. But then again, how do you know?]
b) Buy what you know - Familiarity breeds investment by creating an illusion of safety. People over confidently confuse familiarity with knowledge.
c) Buy what everyone knows - Mistake of confusing information with knowledge that you could use to generate above market returns. Trends tell little about future profits. Demand may rise but market can be over-supplied.
Whether you believe in passive investing or not, two important advices are:
* There is nothing new in investing, only the investment history you don't know.
* Never treat the highly unlikely as impossible.
Great examples are:
# The Nikkei index hit 40,000 in 1989 and now it's below 10,000.
{Fueled by low-interest mortgages, real estate prices in Japan had risen so high that by the end of the 1980s just the land under the Imperial Palace in Tokyo was nominally worth more than all the real estate in California. Then, in late 1989, the bubble burst and real estate prices plummeted, leaving Japan's financial institutions saddled with toxic mortgages and facing bankruptcy.}
Read more.
# In 1900 the Egyptian stock market was one of the largest in the world. Now it's no where. {It was public knowledge that when lumped together, the Cairo and Alexandria Bourses rated among the world's top five Stock Exchanges. Egypt's economy was at an all-time high and the number of companies traded in the Cairo Bourse alone had reached 228 with a combined capital of 91 million pounds.
But like the swing of a pendulum, the high state of euphoria disappeared overnight. Prudence having given way to high-risk speculation, what had started out with a real estate boom in Egypt, ended in what became known in the annals of speculative history as the Crash of 1907.
Some historians concede that the money panic of 1907 started in Alexandria, Egypt, with the failure in July of a large bank - Cassa di Sconto. Japan was hit next, then Germany, then Chile. By October, the fallout reached Europe and the United States. In Egypt, the overextended banks folded up one after the other. }
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Labels: About Books | 书阁繁星, About Business | 财经贸易
The First Step
From this moment on, I will start to write something about investment. This is not because I have mastered it and can start giving lectures, but on the contrary, I have just made the first step and like to save my knowledge gained and observance along the future journey. I do not mind if you find my "eureka" moments are like "what-so-big-deal" or "so-what", as everyone has their own journey to explore. I would feel glad if you could grab something out of them, and even better if you could share out yours or point out my mistakes or misconceptions.
The first step has always been important, and subsequent few steps are even more important as they serve as the soil to grow. A rock solid foundation is the key to everything. I feel sorry to my partners that you may find me like to dilly-dally, talk more than walk or putting more emphasis in other aspects, but this is really my style. I always want to change, and in fact, I am the greediest one who want to change to become better in every aspects, but I believe there is a right time for every change, risen out of the need or consequences. Before I could sense that the moment has come, I preserve my determination and keep my memory well. But when I finally sense it, and I say I want to change, I do really mean it. The dilly-dallying is just the prelude for the main plot. Just like my English, like my Excel skills, like my emotional balance, like my expense management, like my exposures...(Oh...I don't mean to brag...please forgive me)
I am setting my mindset right first before stepping out. To me, investing is just a tool to set myself free financially to move on to do great things; no doubt I need to know how to excel in using this tool but I would not like to see myself get addicted into numbers and alphabets at the expense of life's balance and beauties. That is easier said than done as consequences do change people and money has the cunning power to twist even the purest soul, so I am putting a reminder here for myself, for myself in the future.
I shall now begin to walk, and talk the walk.
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Labels: About Business | 财经贸易
Friday, April 24, 2009
Monday, April 20, 2009
Meaningful environmental photographs by OnAsia
These exhibition photographs are currently shown in NLB Singapore Level 7, very meaningful and full of insights. Too bad I could not disseminate them over the internet due to copyright infringement, but you could enjoy them by just clicking the link below:
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Labels: About Environment | 与绿共舞
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Savour every moment
Sometimes I like so much of my words, although they are not among the best, but they are best of my efforts, and it just feels good to have something created. Just call me wordaholic, because words are life.
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Labels: About Life | 寻梦之路, My Little Pieces | 心路文影
Monday, March 23, 2009
继续前进
决定回来了……反正这里是我的家,我几时要回来就几时回来咯,不是么?呵呵。无论尝试过多少遍,始终放不下的就是放不下,就让我继续自恋自己的文章吧。之前才思有点枯竭了,现在新工作新环境新生活新体悟,有许多新鲜的题材,是时候回来了。
生命不要留白,记忆并不可靠,所以文章是缤纷生活最好的载体。之前把收藏了十多年,小学时关于朋友的日记拿出来和朋友分享,仿佛大家又回到了当年的胡闹,这一种时间酝酿出来的感觉,是多么地神奇复杂。
只是我写的,应该会与以前的有点不同,毕竟我已有了三次重大的人生体悟。是时候把眼光放诸于社会了,呵呵。
我相信生活的磨练让每个人都有深层的感触,但并非所有人能把想法化为文章,多么可惜呢。拥有过却不能回味,多么遗憾呢。
I just don't want to feel sorry for myself in the future, and hence I am back! :)
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Labels: About Blogging | 博客生涯
Sunday, March 22, 2009
无力的咆哮
夜间流连在茶餐室收铁罐的老伯是一拐一拐的,而那些肆意挥霍的总裁们则是嬉皮笑脸的,如此赤裸的悬殊对照,真的让我这种无力的中产阶级怒从中来。对,这世界从未公平过,但不公不应每况愈下至如此让人心寒。
人类社会发展迅猛至今,说开了,本质上和封建社会有什么不一样,有钱有势就是能使鬼推磨。除了顶层有权有势有名有利的,其他的就是高尚的贱民;而顶层的,就总是要和魔鬼定约,出卖洁净的灵魂,以求死抱名利。
这是历史的悲剧,而历史的悲剧就注定会不断重演。古代的贱民还可以起义,而我们却被多种的无形枷锁困得连哼一声的勇气都没有;古代的贵族还会发财立品,现在的却连廉耻都懒得买了,
雷曼集团的可以开庆功宴庆祝倒闭,那九洞的凤蛙收了台底的贿赂还大摇大摆地驾着豪华轿车游街,丝毫不以是过街老鼠的身份为愧。
谁说现代社会不需要荆轲的?有动物可能在四月正式上台表演呢。
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Labels: About Ideology | 理念思考, About Society | 世事人情, My Country | 国楼愁雾
Friday, March 13, 2009
别了
一周里的第二宗自杀事件,朋友打来询问时我毫不知情,后来看到简短的短讯:NTU PRC hanged himself也没联想到什么,直至晚上另一通电话……自那刻起,电话的讯波不停地来回,为的只是一个确定;自确定后,混乱的思绪不停地探索,为的只是一个答案。为什么呢?但理智的搜索并没有找到答案,只找到散落的记忆不断地回放,酝酿出哀愁和叹息。
谁说世上最遥远的距离不是生与死的隔离?逝世带走的不仅是一切的可能,也带走了时间的流动,带走了空气的生气,独剩零碎的记忆在填补破裂的空隙……
为什么呢?在别人眼中是那么开朗的周正,为什么会选择走这一条路?在照片堆里笑的那么快乐的周正,为什么会一时想不开?
或许,你笑容的背后隐藏着的不是开心,而是忧愁。或许,你能笑,是因为你不在乎那些事;而对于你在乎的事,你太在乎了。或许,你太想要找到自己的方向,以致加速过度碰到障碍一时拐不到弯。或许,你给自己设立太高的抱负,却忘了给自己喘息的空间,以致于最后选择窒息。
要不然,你怎么会因为赔偿金未确定,而对三藩市之旅犹豫那么久?要不然,你怎么会在被裁后,因为觉得自己不适合在半导体电子厂工作,而如此急速地调整方向?要不然,你为什么在一段期间内,把校内网户口关闭与世隔绝,为的只是专心修读会计课程?要不然,你怎么会在报读了这课程后,在家里没负担而生活还有一笔钱时,还烦忧着找份工赚钱?要不然,你怎么会在找到工后,却担忧要读的资料太陌生?
和你最后的通电里那五秒钟的沉默,我宁愿相信那是你我生疏的前兆,而不是你有想说的话没说。我的情绪,变得多么复杂。有时候,生气你走前没给任何一个朋友一个机会帮忙;有时候,害怕想像你临走前感受的恐惧;有时候,感激你生前曾给我的无数回忆……
但你走了,我真的再也帮不到你什么了……唯有和其他朋友整理你的照片和回忆做成一本纪念册,希望能帮助你的爸妈早日走出伤痛。如果不是大家一起做,我想我会非常意兴阑珊。
只是,若你能听到葬礼时你妈妈那撕心裂肺的哀嚎,你会否后悔呢?真的可惜了,不过是一时的想不开……
朋友,若你想自杀,去听听葬礼里丧子之母的哀哭和感受为人父母白头人送黑头人终的悲痛吧。人,无论抱负多高,都不应该只是为自己而活的。。。自杀,真的很自私。
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