双离

在电梯偶遇。

“我想提早通知。”

“对之前的顾虑没有影响？”

“问了，确认了没有。提早到你离去那天，可以吗？”

“当然可以，只要你想清楚了的话。”

“想好了就要做，再拖下去就不成气候了。你也不是一样？”

“看来接下来的日子动荡难免。”

“哈哈，你的才是地震海啸呢！我的算什么。”他也笑了，没有继续说什么。

挥手道别后，想起几个小时前的第一次也是最后一次的表现评估，我很奇怪地笑了出来。在这评估里，没有假的内容，但对两个即将离去的人，却更像是谢幕戏。

站在同样理解的高度上的对话，许多重要的讯息都不言自明，属言外之意。一笑，藏千意。或许生活的高度，只能在工作外找到。

心之幽弦

犯贱是触动心灵最深的哀歌，暗弦幽幽一拨，镜象朦胧散落，早已尽是迷茫却仍盼望着曙光。以宁顽的坚强撑住逐渐下滑的笑颊，眉头仍向外直坦，眼神却早已邃藏。远望静想，在时间中出神停荡，在喧闹里游离独唱。又一天，与寂弦音共伴天涯。

学习榜样

今天和同事聊起我即将扬帆启程的航海，他和我分享他同学的故事。他这个朋友出身贫困，从来上学都只有一件破旧的校服，尝辛受苦易立志，于是读完中学后决意要出人头地，尤其不甘心埋没自己优秀的才华，结果在波涛的股海中奋斗，终于赚成今天几百万的身家。

从他的口中描述，我得知他这位朋友如何敏锐地察觉股票即时波动的升跌，如何联系不同市场、同样行业、不同公司的起落来掌握大局，如果看出趋势，如何利用数据，如何运用头脑来投机投资。无穷的研究加上锐利的眼光，这正是我要学习的绝佳榜样。

只是过了大半世，至今他仍然孤寡一人，也没有怎么去花钱，真叫人遗憾。如何赚钱是学问，如何花钱更是大学问。人生难道这样就一世吗？都已经有几百万，为何不去游历世界体验生活呢？就算在股市中打滚尽管有无止境的智力挑战，仍不过是生活的一面而已。

我没有尝过贫困的艰辛，但工作了大半年，让我有相似的不甘心。一层层的梯级，一层层的限制，一层层的枷锁，那种无从让优势发挥的郁闷啊！让工作失去了大部分的意义。

我并不会以失败者的身份离开，但是我更渴望爬上更高的山峰来证明自己。好几位朋友比我先踏出这一步，但我不会仅仅是踏出去，而是会豁出去，因而我需要积蓄更多的勇气。

这一段航海将会显示，我究竟是鸡肋，还是楚庄。

此去无路

有时候想一想，我们的成长之路没有多少选择。受困于教育环境和现实环境，和缺乏有先见的指导，使我们都趋利避害地走上了类似的道路，尤其对我这个一直以来在学习和升学路上自力更生的傻小子而言，更是难以为将来划出什么道路，设计出什么蓝图。或许是固执让我总是后知后觉，但我仍记得很多时候为能否在大酱缸里生存忧心忡忡，又如何能有智慧去为未来铺路？

因而我很难为过去的决定而后悔，因为那些或许曾是困境里最好的选择。只是现在见识渐广羽翼已丰的我，已经有自信能自立更生，无论怎么样都能生存下去。这样，我就不应该被过去的选择所捆绑，安心于能做什么，直至作茧自缚，永无破茧的一天。

在过去某个阶段缺少了应有的指导，并不意味着就此丧失了乘风破浪的勇气和追求新异的渴望。少了忧虑，我将一去不复返，先置自己于死地，以释放出最强大的勇气和潜力。至于能否“后生”，已不是个问题。

人生，总要跌跌撞撞，才能找到答案。总是怕跌倒，就永远学不会走路，而只能甘心于爬行。

错用善良

大部分的人变复杂，或许并非为了追逐顶峰的名利权，而不过为了保存内心善良的幼苗。只是，如果大部人皆如此，为何人事政治仍遍布，导致大家竞相叹息？本是同道一心，何以难有共鸣？

或许，大家错用了善良，宁愿怜悯有各种心灵顽疾的“坏人”，而不肯去谅解偶尔松懈的“好人”。一个错得几近无可救药的人，却还有一大票人为他辩护，给予他可能对的宽恕。而一个没什么做错的正常人，却有更大票人去揣测、怀疑和猜忌他的动机，没有给予他应该享有的信任和理解。

我们都想保护自己的善苗，却不愿意保护同道中人的善苗，而反倒去别人的大麻丛中找寻善苗，忌善从恶，我们是不是都生病了哈？

晨雨的记忆

清晨似晚昏，乌云密重，雨斜风横。撑伞单过空礼堂，不见师生，却闻十年前的钟堂声。雨天自修的教室，尽是欢乐。窗外的候车处，橙黄小巴成一片海。车来了，却不是校车。上了白红长巴，镜外雨渐细，往昔更迷离。曾经风雨同路，而今又在何处，是否都各自在奋斗的旅途？

职场上的私德

一个同事值不值得与他共事，就得看他肯不肯站稳自己的工作岗位，敬业尽责。这和他的私德没有任何关系。我管他私底下为人有多好，如果他连自己的责任都不肯背负，而让其他的同事承受多余的负担累赘，再好人也是枉然。我甚至会怀疑，所谓的“好人”形象，是否只是伪善的面具，利用着别人的怜悯来逃脱责任。

同事如此，政治人物亦然，公责和私德必须分明。

The shackles of fear

Driven by fear to be accountable and laziness to absorb responsibility, some people master vast range of skills which include evading, reflection and so on. They would never bother to do hands on , like to hands off everything and yet fighting hard to justify their salary.

Whenever a problem occurs, they would ask one thousand and one questions. Sounds like they really care huh? Actually they don't even bother to waste a microsecond to read or digest information of which they may find answers for their own questions.

They just need an answer to be answerable, or they need a line stating that this is not their responsibility. And then they would be very happy to remain silent. To them learning worths nothing, except for learning all those skills.

The best thing is to have nothing happens. What a boring life they wish to live. Binded eternally and fully controlled by fear, they are losing their existence second by second.

principleSSSS

It is easy to have the whole world to embrace a common set of values and principles. Be good, be nice, be fair, be just, bla bla bla. But it is never easy, or perhaps impossible, to have all of us rationalize and react the same way when principles CLASH against each other.

There are million of circumstances where principle A yields to principle B, and another million of circumstances where principle B yields to principle A. The world is never as simple as it is, or perhaps it makes more sense to put it this way, the world still exists and continues to evolve because it is complex and diversified.

When you realizes this, you starts to feel bored when people keep yelling and shouting for "justice", "freedom", "rights" while spend virtually no time on laying the groundwork of essential knowledge and working on the details of possible directions. Simply hijackers of ideologies and fanatic followers of Utopia where everything is as easy as the simple math: 1+1=2.

Just like any other arenas in life, you could draw enormous attentions when you talk loud and big, but if this is the only thing you could do, expect a immediate backfire and downfall. Words, reveal.

Don't just talk loud, talk how. The world will not move forward even all of us share the same set of values. Such rigidity, is too simple to attain and offers no worth. Flexibility and details in dealing with every occasions, are what really matter.

Pessi vs Opti

A person who is too pessimistic, perhaps haven't been through some of the magical moments of life and tasted its sweetness. A person who is too optimistic, perhaps haven't seen or felt most of the tragedies and melancholies. Nobody can be purely pessimistic or optimistic, and hence you would always wonder, how would a pessimist carries on his or her life, and how would a optimist lives when he or she finally has to face some of the musics.

A little sense of pessimism keep us alert, while a little sense of optimism keep us alive. Roller coaster of emotions, again.