没想到会在这屡屡地倒下……一个交白卷的学生看起来极像颓废的同学。 我还是以往的逃课王，只是在少了教学录像的帮助下，变得有点一筹莫展。 CA不再是帮助过关的那般简单，在不同教授的喜好下，有不同的杀人手段。 在异地的高空坠落是陌生的，模糊的彷徨正在逐渐摧毁自信。 或许是18个学分的错？当其他交换生都在游玩的时候，我只能在旁徒羡。 但我不该被羡慕所迷茫，因为别人也正在羡慕我的生活。 18分是这里交换生的学分上限，却只是南大颓废的象征。 如果我修得再少一点，回去后等着我的炼狱会更难熬。 何必去怨天尤人？那是走向堕落的开端。 所以即便摔得再难看也终得爬起来，尽管那需要时间和适应。 自信确实减少了，但乐观不可少，因为它提供给我挑战的勇气。 谈不上有充分准备，但今天一战，等待……重拾自信的高昂！抑或……再度失败的不忿！ 再度死亡……为什么课程教的次序会不按照notes的？认栽了，逃课的代价。 但是还是有点生气，怎么每一次都这么混账？教了N堂的课却只出第N堂课的内容。 三天的努力复习恍如白费，20%就这样不见…… 要合格，我是否需要点运气？
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Welcome to my virtual home. This is a little private space for me to put my thoughts and share my feelings since 2005. Due to my wide range of interests, there are perhaps too many tags. I would explain some of the less obvious tags:
"About Life" is really about how I have been pondering about life and what enlightenments and paradigm shifts I had experienced.
"About Psi" contains most topics about happiness, optimism vs pessimism,
confidence, comparison, pride and prejudice and other psychological aspects.
"About Logical Thinking" is about my own way of interpretating and explaining
certain issues, aiming to debunk (or create?) superficialness of them.
"About Ideology" is about my thoughts on big concepts like freedom, justice,
fairness in society and religion.
"About Society" is more about my observations about the society, often through interactions with different peoples.
"My Country" reveals my frustration, critics and hope
on my homeland - Malaysia.
"My Little Pieces" has more short posts though mostly are written in Mandarin.
While I do have some posts on book reviews and business, I am planning to
separate them into author-specific and content-specific blogs. Stay tuned.
Enjoy your reading!
Tuesday, November 7, 2006
挑战
Posted by clim at 1:50 AM
Labels: My Emotions | 情绪小室, University | 学云彩絮
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