Two paths

Two paths:

Path A: Lazy to get things done - piling - accumulating - rolling - procrastinating - learn how to avoid - learn how to delegate - learn how to leverage - learn how to bull shit - learn how to smoke -----> Eventually things need to be done are still there. Nothing has been moved, nothing has been solved, nothing has been done. When the bomb explodes either the person dies or his successor dies.

Path B: Want to get things done - trying - pushing - driving - analyzing - moving but slowly - learn how to absorb - learn how to communicate - learn how to collaborate - learn how to co-operate ------> Eventually things get better slowly. Something has been cleared, something has been cleaned, something has been done, but not everything becomes perfect and problems still exist. This makes the room for improvement, building on predecessor's efforts to make things better and better.

In either path, we can never work alone. Those who choose path A and "work" alone, will soon be fired; and those who choose path B and work alone, will soon become tired.

And hence, first thing first, there is a need to ensure no room for players to choose path A and create the abusing downward spiral. Because, when too many people walk path A with too less people doing the real job, the bomb just grows bigger and bigger. When it explodes, all will die.

The irony of guardian

Somehow I feel that those who at least get the basic works done in job, tend to have a deeper hunger to free themselves from the routine chain and seek for something higher. One that defends the castle the most is one that wishes to leave the castle the most. How ironical is that? Maybe I am biased but I have seen quite of number of them.

To a certain extent this looks contradicting. If you don't like what you are doing, why are you still safeguarding the responsibilities? You can learn various skills like "tai-chi" to survive in the workplace.

But in fact, it only becomes truly contradicting if one seeks to free himself for something higher, and yet use dirty tricks (tricks are not necessary dirty) to achieve so. Means and ends must go in one direction.

Of course the "something higher" means values and principles.

午后陽光

空無一人的校園
籬線上低垂的淺紫
迎著斜照的金黃
放工的午后
天空特別晴朗
路邊三兩行人散步
綠叢幾朵黃花微笑
小鳥飛滑去天邊
仍趕不上回收的光線
大地就這樣開始入夜

偶遇最燦爛的時光 難留片刻
等待最燦爛的日子 不爭朝夕
運有旺滯 氣有盛衰 急緩有數 才是真速度

命水

幸福的家庭都相似，不幸的家庭各不同。
善良的脸孔都相似，不善的面具各不同。
温馨的时刻都相似，不良的祸事各不同。

感触良多，只好借用和补充托尔斯泰的句子。

我现在是很幸福的，不过却不是所有人的起跑点能和我一样。当然也有起跑点比我好的人，不过有几个是只顾自己跑的？

水往下流，我看人最好还是别太轻易知足了，知足可是需要福气的。

The worry of wisdom

Sometimes I wonder if gaining wisdom harms, where too much of ugly truths are just unbearable when the mind is weary. And yet, it is dangerous if ignorance causes wrong negligence at the wrong time. Though chances are low, the cost to pay is deadly when it happens.

Between incessant little bites and immediate killing blow, which one is less suffering?

经验 - 相不相关

既然前文强调了“经验”的重要性，就顺带谈一下所谓的“经验”。

作为初生之犊，我们很自然地会在很多情况下，发觉“经验”有被审视的需要，尤其当一些所谓有“X年工作经验的”人的作风总是让人愤怒时。应该说，年岁不等于经验，正如待在公司里不等于有做工一样。因而，”相关“的经验，还是值得尊重的；但相不相关，就至关重要。X年的工作经验，究竟是X年的打太极经验，还是X年的实干经验？

相关的经验，是越多越好，越广越好。但在这个大千世界啊，谁会说自己的经验不相关呢？呵呵。

浅谈脑力

前几天看到一篇关于科学与科技的文章，是说两者是在不断共同演进的，很少鸡先还是蛋先的问题。更重要的是，两者都是演进出来的，而不是如陨石般从外星降落，或如电子般突然飞跃。

看来，无论是生活哪一方面的灵感，都是努力和运气两者的共同累积。创新，是在积累现有知识和技术的基础上，演变出来的。直觉，是在潜意识或无意识中混合不同经验的各种触觉，表露出来的。至于如何，就要看那神秘的大脑了。由此可见经验、阅历和见识的重要，基础要稳要广才能叠得高。

在看Tony Buzan关于脑力和记忆的书，对于其帮助众说纷纭，所以不如直接亲阅。正如我的一位朋友说的，很多东西有没有用，是看你希望从东西那里得到什么。而我觉得，能不能从那里得到什么，还要看自己的层次和领悟力。

找一个最佳平衡

不如这样说，开始出来做工的，很少人不会经历我现有的烦恼，那些不烦忧的，一是还未开窍，二是早己找到答案。他们能够提早找到答案，因为他们更早开始了辛勤的栽种，承受着自审的风吹雨打，直至找到了适合的天地，才逐渐绽放出独特靓丽的花朵。从栽种到开花，可长可短，因人而异；但不耕耘就没有收获。要开出自定色的花朵，不可能不经历风风雨雨。梅花香自苦寒来，不是吗？

好比我一个朋友，自小对天文星象感兴趣，立志要当上宇航员，可惜却没有合格的身体素质。同时间，他对烹饪也很有兴趣，所以退而求其次，想当个大厨，却遭受家里强大的压力，因为做厨的，除非天资异于常人，否则一般的厨子，老实说前途难“亮”。这又不行，那又不行，怎么办？结果他在深思熟虑过后，从电子工程转去读营养学，因为还是做与食物有关的，所以还蛮乐于其学。兜兜转转，他终于在现实和梦想之间找到了一个最佳的平衡。

又如我最崇拜的足球教练温格，尽管他曾经想成为一个非常出色的球员，无奈太晚接触足球，早已失去成为当顶级球员的契机和需要累积的基础。但他没有放弃对足球运动的无比热诚，所以登上了今天的顶峰，成为世界数一数二的"教授"。

这两个例子，是我特意选的。尽管天生我才必有用，但关于梦想，是否每个人都可以找到、走向和实现呢？世界是随机的，现实是残酷的，机会是稀少的，所以才会有那么多的悲剧。你想做的，和你能做的，未必被缘份牵线；而现实中的种种限制：阶级、权力、权利、财富等，未必是你全部能突破的。想想看，有多少人会认为清洁工、搬运工、工厂工等形形式式的粗活，是他们的理想工作？而具格成为理想工作的，在社会中又占多少？

稍微想想都让人意志消沉，但这种种限制，不应是拿来打击你的，而是拿来激发你的。没错，竞争是残酷的，但只有竞争才能激发出求进心。就算最终我破不完所有的限制，至少我仍旧在努力突破，仍旧在向前迈进。每一个人，都有自己的起跑点，不像在田径赛，竞赛者都在同一起点和同一时间起跑。所以成功，绝对是自定义的，没有一套客观标准如身份、职业、财富来衡量。白手兴家的中产阶级，难道会比挥霍成性的富翁二代，更失败吗？到最后，能够衡量自己是否成功的，不过是一句扪心自问：我跑了我想完成的最长距离吗？尤其喜欢这个句子：“成功，是看你有没有最大限度地发展了自己的潜能。”

我明白不是所有人都能实现自己的梦想，而我始终没忘记中学数学补习老师Mr.Hin的致别语：“Do what you like, like what you do"，还有我心中的那份坚持：敬业乐业。工作能和兴趣合二为一，当然最好；合不成，也要并行共进，就算速度慢了点，至少也是最佳的平衡。

我醒悟特别迟，所以才决定从奔向错误方向的火车上跳轨，找寻属于自己的天空，在属于自己的大地上奔跑。有很多人问我为何有火车不坐却宁愿行走，我想乘着火车就算越过了更长的距离，也不是我想完成的最长距离，我又何必拘泥于成功的”大众定义“和以这种定义来论英雄的看法，而错过了“出轨”的最佳岁月？

犯错，只要不致命，就是学习的最佳捷径。
出走，只要没失责，就是寻志的最快方法。

兜兜转转，没有搭上当初的火车，跳不到今天的轨。
跌跌撞撞，没有跳出今天的火车，找不到明天的梦。
摇摇晃晃，搭上生活的真正列车，开一趟自己的路。

坠翔倒数

觉得现在的自己有点恐怖，第一次不再随遇而安不让命运为我绘图划路，第一次真正决定、规划和准备出海的风帆，逼自己去面对变幻莫测的天气，内心却蕴藏着从来没有过的猛火，兴奋得有点颤抖。

自决定的那一刻起，我在生活的很多方面都有了变化。自毁长城，把懦弱心踩在脚下；拒绝妥协，让叛逆值升到最高，这都不是以前的我，至少不是表露出来的我。

我记得在很长的一段时间内，在刚强和柔软之间，我总是更欣赏柔软，因为我害怕刚强会绞杀掉我细腻的感受，让我变得冷漠无情，毕竟善感是前一段启发带来的瑰宝。但把两者对立起来更像是我抗拒改变的借口，现在看起来，两者其实不矛盾，以刚强为钢架，以柔软为混凝，方能散发最亮的光芒，少了哪一个生活都将失色。少了刚强，内心被过多的忧愁囚禁，生活停滞不前；少了柔软，内心被过旺的拼劲堵塞，无尽的忙盲茫。

因而，我想通了。善良，不是懦弱，而是扶弱。没有柔软，再强大也不会瞄弱者一眼；没有刚强，再细腻也只能明哲保身。扶弱，刚好把刚强和柔软溶在一起，同时闪耀着勇气和同情心的光芒，因而为快乐之本。

在柔软过盛的情况下，我唯有通过克服最深的怯懦，释放出最大的勇气，才能做到刚柔并济。而这最深层的怯懦，就是害怕为未来规划，害怕去找寻自己的梦想。或许我太为自己的适应能力而自豪，太相信自己的临场发挥，太得意于随遇而安的潇洒，所以尽管处于长期困惑，却找不到一个答案。

到现在找到了答案，我才真正明白，人生只把握在自己的手中，只有亲手规划，才能活出最精彩。当然，我不会漏掉那最强大的催化剂：留给我成功的时间，真得并不多。

举头望鹰，不如立志奋斗。

Work-sickaholic

I am so close to sleep but yet one email triggers my serene mind to turn on urge to express a ruminating thought that has been in my mind for long.

I want to separate between workaholic and work-sickaholic. I don't know does this term exist but it just strikes my chord. While most of people are sick of long-hour works (not for / against, just a statement), some people are sick. Work makes them sick, real sick.

If those works are like doctors - saving life, teachers - nourishing talents, developers - building things, leaders - bearing responsibilities and so on, I have nothing but due respect for those that devote their precious time in contributing to the society and lifting others up.

If those works are mere routine activities or exercises, of which shallow meaning could be dug out, hands off and get a life! No one is going to read these emails at 11PM, so what on earth sending out at this hour, to exert unnecessary, unwise and meaningless pressure on employees?

I admire workaholic. Perhaps to a certain extent I am, but I draw a very clear line between workaholic and work-sickaholic. I can't despise them as they do work, but I feel awfully unease. Life is short, so time could have been spent on much more meaningful events.

Of course I have nothing to say if that's what they seek. But I term it as sickaholic because I think what drives them are waves of fears from dark vortex. One fine day they will realize they are patients.

Or am I the patient actually?

魄力

智慧来源于敏锐的洞察、深刻的思考和坚持不懈的努力。魄力来源于思考后的选择和判断，选择和判断之所以果敢是因为思考的深入和信念的坚定。魄力本身就包含了智慧，没有智慧的“魄力”只能是卤莽。情感冷漠、意志薄弱的人是不可能拥有智慧和魄力的。- 转载 《雅虎知识堂》

想法：锲而不舍地“观察 - 思考 - 判断“，让整个思维流程一气呵成，“运筹帷幄之中，决胜千里之外”，多么潇洒。这种魄力，是智力和勇气的完美结晶。情感冷漠的，毅力再盛，也只能有暴君的凶狠；意志薄弱的，善心再大，也只能有弱者的悲哀。这句警戒，太符合我心中所想，巧合地概括了我的现实观察，欣喜。

vis

This is the first time I feel so much importance about vision, a vision that envisages the outlook of events and draws the colourful rainbow in the sky of future. If we do not believe that tomorrow is a sunnier day and future will be brighter, what are we holding on to live? If we do not believe that we can change to become better and brighter, what are we holding on to exist? Hope, could be all that one has.

If, the cruel cold hard harsh environment prohibits growth and dims hope, leave for better future is the only option, though tremendous risks may be just outside the door. If, in the worst case that leaving is not an option, then there are two choices: overthrow evils that are crowning if you are powerful enough, or accumulating power to assist in making such scenario more likely. We might not reap what we sow for long, but at least seeds are planted.

It is a war of vision, as no vision or false vision are what make evils. Taking things when they come or strike, is too late and powerless. The only counter, is vision.

鲁钝

忘了从哪里看到“宁生败家子，莫生鲁钝儿”或类似这样的句子，因为败家的最多把家产败光，害不到别人；但鲁钝的，害了人却可能不知道，点不通又怪不了，终极无奈。

觉得挺有道理，却Google不到这个句子。但我深信很少天生注定鲁钝的，因为人类大脑的潜能无限大、无限广、无限深，就看几时能被启发而已。

Contra

I think we often have contradicting needs, like having a little pair of angel vs demon near our ears. That's why we are complicated and none of us is exempted. The only difference is, some are aware of this some are not. For those that are aware, they can minimize (but not eliminate) contradicting themselves and become clearer in their life pursuits. Or, they can house both voices and yet maintain a sweet balance to adapt to ever-changing environment. For those that are not, they can moan about one thing today and grief about another thing tomorrow, without knowing that those two things actually contradict against each other. Or, they can further deceive themselves that they are faultless and develop themselves into a pseudo moralist or hypocrite.

In much simpler term, no pain no gain. We all dream about gain without painting the pain in the picture, and fool dreams about all types of gains and stay scared of all kinds of pains. What a wonderful land! But reality is revolving around yin and yang, without yin there will not be yang, and vice-versa. Just like there will not be any happiness if there is no sadness. The question is, how much more can we minimize sadness and maximize happiness. Some move forward for better future, and some are pushed forward by greater evil of past. A better choice of two fortunes or lesser of two evils? Depends on which way you are more inclined to see it, but I don't think we can have wholesome happiness if we do not have the slightest sense of sadness.

"But hey, why bother so much about this?"

"Oh yeah, you are welcome to stay in your wonderland. It's me that couldn't afford such luxury, or no one grants me such luxury."

You can have the best of each road but you could only choose one to walk. The road that you choose not to continue, and its alongside sceneries that you would miss perhaps forever, are called sacrifices. - C'est la vie.

又一宗

今天和朋友去West mall的Bali Thai吃饭，却不幸又遇上了服务态度差劲的侍应。又是那种一脸漠然，对什么事都不闻不问的态度。我内心又不禁骂了出来：什么鸟人？什么鬼服务态度？

首先，既然餐单没有注明菜式的大小，作为侍应就应该主动说明，而不是等到我点菜之后才说这是小的，然后用生硬的声音播出千遍一律的陈述：小的两人份，中的两到四个人份。到我点好了一样菜，他仍然无动于衷，没有继续说明其他菜式的分量也是小的，直至我问清楚。这是黑店嘛？

第二，当我要求四杯冷开水时，他也冷冰冰地回答说餐馆只卖矿泉水。作为侍应，应该明白其他餐馆普遍提供冷开水，这间餐馆不提供已是劣势。摆明限顾客叫饮料，不是不可以，但请自知理亏而用温和的语气。一句冷冰冰的回答，当我是傻菜头吗？自愿被砍还要装开心？

第三，他漏写了一样菜。我们等了好久没等到烤鱿鱼，一看餐桌上的餐单，才发觉又是他搞的！真是不可原谅了，但我觉得他无可救药，所以连提醒他犯错的劲都没了。另一个朋友有劲，把他叫了过来解释，结果他反倒说他没写漏，可能他在重复我们的点菜时，我们没确认好。真是睁着眼睛说瞎话，他连重复点菜都没做！

真是对他彻底失望，但他也再一次印证了我的观察，对于这种对任何事都不闻不问的倒米员工，外界的施压完全无用。请到他，这餐馆很倒霉。但从餐单的疏漏和不提供开水的策略，也显示着这餐馆的失败，妄想留得住顾客。

和店小二、Billy Bombers的服务态度比起来真是天差地远。

邪不胜正

我一时忘了为什么对其中一个同事早有戒心，还以为自己的第六感真得那么厉害，直到最近才想起，刚做工不久就因为一件事而察觉到不妥。

那件事，就是他用“茅招”，通过我来打听老板的消息。明明老板在我身旁，却假传讯息说老板有事找我，让我纳闷了两秒，过后才恍然大悟。我明白一个员工要确认无政府状态的渴望，但是却搞不懂他为什么不可以单刀直入，而取道旁门。想要掩饰，也不用好一点的伎俩，明明是下三滥的手段，却以为自己出的是高招，直教我打从心里鄙视，从那一刻起就挖沟筑墙。

时隔十个月，收到从不同管道传来的讯息和经历不少事件后，我终于明白什么叫声名狼藉。可怜他还活在自己的世界，以为用表面的魔术忽悠了全世界，却不知道早已被众人唾弃。当然，凭着厚黑术，他还可以生存下去，但就仅仅是生存下去，在没有朋友的情况下，生存下去。

基本上，谁和他在哪一方面同组，谁就颜面无存，因为那一方面总被他丢尽了脸。最好他别称自己叫男人，真教我无地自容。真希望，有一天，他会看到林肯的这句话：“你可以在某些时候欺骗所有的人，也可以永远欺骗某些人，却不能永远欺骗所有人。”

邪金耐不住时间的真火，因而，最重要的还是心术正，心水清。其道不正，其术也歪。

古人管理之道

加强和辅助管理的工具多不胜数，但我总觉得，能用工具而不去深究道理的，只是工匠，而非大将。无心于道，再多的术也是徒然，能学不能精。

或许我有偏见，趋势读了MBA的，可能还不如稍懂中国历史的更懂得管理。古人的智慧，顺手捎来就能当管理的金科。一句“得人心者”，可得天下；一本资治通鉴，可治天下。

以身作则
知人善用
赏罚公平
轻重分明
职责明确
传交有序
刚柔并济
软硬兼施

想想就能总结出这八句，但在现实里却似乎不常见。知人方能善用，但有些老板连你做什么都不知道呢，更遑论知你，好好用你了。这些原则，用于管理；再加上眼光、远见和魅力，就是领导。

【这篇文章和这些总结，憋了很久才在今天写出来。现时的我只能空口说，但我不害怕证明自己，当机会到来时。】

皮笑

这个世界，其实很好玩。和虚构的武侠世界一样，正派会有岳不群，魔教会有张无忌，若真正数起来，这世间何止千百派？

有时候，你可以从惯常的笑脸之外的只言片语，得知一个人内心比你更灰暗。笑脸于他，是生存的面具，更是调适内心的平衡木。你别看他幽默搞笑，其实他把别人看得很负面。一是唯我独尊的帝王优生派，二是唯恐不乱的悲观逃离派。他往往能放大你的短处，却珍惜不了你的长处；勉强看到你的能力，却看不到你的潜力。和这种人谈话其实很辛苦，因为他让你短暂地欢愉，却永远地沉沦。凭什么你把我看得如此负面？因为唯你独善？因为你已对世界绝望？

如果无条件地宽恕是人间最伟大的力量，因为它体现了人最大的善；那么无条件地猜忌就是最邪恶的力量，因为它体现了人最大的恶。就算笃信人性本恶，若要完成最后的救赎，不是靠自私地渴望天堂，而是要去相信人能向善，促进人间和善。

我觉得，真理在地心说被日心说推翻，人类不再以自我为中心的那一刻，就彰显了。

批评

批评的尺度不易拿捏，但有些人不会去顾忌，一种是可爱的直肠子，一种是可怕的独裁者。后者以批评为独门利器，不管情势如何，不理会你死活，总是不刺不爽。

显妖镜有两种，百试百灵。第一种是建议他设身处地为被批评的想一想，而你将会得到如此回应：“管他的，我只顾我的批评。”这样子，才能肆无忌惮地批评，高招吧！第二种是尝试提出不同见解，泼泼他冷水，他一定会摇身变成战斗公鸡，雄赳赳地跟你拼了，不是比道理，而是拼大声。

终究而言，他是为出气而批评、为泄恨而批评、为批评而批评、为破坏而批评，为什么而批评都好，就不是为了建设而批评。这样的人，不恐怖吗？

正如我之前写的，中庸的其中一点，在于懂得拿捏批评的尺度。但我主观认为，从沉默到学会批评，比从滥批到适度批评，更容易。全因家庭环境的熏陶。一路以来，母亲都把排骨炸焦，使我以为炸排骨应该是黑色的。直至有一次父亲有空，煮了一餐更可口美味的炸排骨，全家才知道原来炸排骨应该是黄褐色的。我永远忘不了父亲转身的那句叮咛：“不做就唔好出声，出声就要做得更好。”，那一刻我深深折服，仿佛就是“不在其位，不谋其政”的完美体现。（只不过，就因为这个不出声，吃了几年焦排骨。@.@）

因而我很少批评，但我逐渐意识到学会批评的重要，否则要吃大亏。好比一只静静下蛋的母鸡，却给老是无事啼叫的公鸡抢尽风头和甜头，气难消！而现实中，这样的臭公鸡，多得是！所以，要么不批评，要批评就要顾及被批评者的处境。

P/S:若现在复制一个年轻的李光耀，恐怕他会在许多方面不认同现在的他，但他绝不会只站在那里，哭闹啼叫。不过，这也只能是我这个匹夫的无聊臆测而已。

Know more? Think twice.

The more I know the more I have to let go, let go of such thought that, knowing more is the only way to reach destination. When I know more, I am enlightened that the world can revolve by pushing around, I am amazed by how smart some parasites are, and those who walked the path I intend to walk have left such a note: the more you know, the more work you have; the less you know, the less problem you have. Eventually, it boils down to one and only one simple question: why do I want to know more? Does the possession of knowledge genuinely makes me happy, as it has filled my curiosity, or it makes me feel more secured?

Knowing more is not the only way, perhaps not even the fastest or effective way to reach destination, but I get more than just reaching destination. It is not only ends that matter, or matter the most. Eventually, it points to one and only one final question: can I answer my own call of conscience and compassion?

Counting down. Starting up.

I have decided. This move is bold and adventurous in the eyes of most. Deep down my heart, I share the same fear, but I have my own solid reasons. Most elders support my decision, because having been through so many stages in life, they know much better about colours, flavours and scents of life.

Perhaps it is not so wise to make this profound, and I certainly appreciate advices against letting rumours run around, because it will leave me no chance to revert my decision and render me no other options than committing what I say. But this is exactly what I want. Though my reasons are sensible, I may be overrun by fear and fall back to comfort zone. The only way to avoid that is to cut down every possible paths and burn down hopes of alternatives.

I know for sure, that I need to conquer this fear, just like how I conquered the fear of commanding English, the fear of working and so on. It is exactly the same reason why I do not further my studies. I do not like to run away.

And yet, people like to judge according to norm, stereotype or what they think, if what they think is not norm or stereotype. When I started my first job, some colleagues said:"Why are you here? You shouldn't be here." When I started my second job, some colleagues said:"Why are you here? You shouldn't be here." And I know for sure, when I start my third job, some will say:"Why are you here? You shouldn't be here." I am not saying that I dislike constructive advice, but I just want to say that this kind of idiot-proof question exists everywhere. If I should not be at the place wherever I go, who is responsible for my destination if I am to follow any of the advice above? No one.

I seriously dislike the idea of "what kind of people should do what kind of job", and I believe that whichever path we take, we all have different destination.

To me, a lot of things weigh much higher than "technical knowledge".

柜台鸟人

连续两个星期，两个不同的场合，两个不同的柜台服务员，同出一辙的服务态度。都是爱理不理漠视一切的嘴脸，都是比僵尸还无神的眼球，像比天王老子还大，完全不需要理会和理解顾客的需求。老实说，真得看了就想揍他几拳（"升他几拳兜巴给他死"），什么鸟人？聘请到这种“倒米”员工的人真倒霉。

Toughest call

I can have the best of each path, but I could only choose one to walk. Which path should I change to? My choice of change would change my life forever, which interests to take and which interests to leave?

The toughest decision in my life to make.

Day

In every day, we have things to worry, meals to enjoy, fatigues to overcome, surprises to meet and emotions to experience. At the end of the day, what most pleasing is to enjoy serenity in solitude before waltzing into anxiety-free dreamland. Don't carry over unnecessary burdens to tomorrow, don't bring forward unnecessary worries from tomorrow. At the end of the day, we could only live life day by day.

不知不觉沉睡去

小时候，在外工作劳碌了大半天的母亲往往在晚上看电视节目看到睡去，半夜醒来才回房间睡。而我和小猫，看着在沙发上坐着沉睡的她，总是很好奇。干嘛不直接回房间睡呢？床又大又暖。

原来是回房间睡要费神去催眠自己，反而睡不着；慢慢让电视的杂音消去一天最后的能量，反而更易入梦。

对于要睡就睡的我来说，没有这个烦恼；但我逐渐能体会，忙碌疲累到不知不觉地睡去，原来很美妙。朦胧醒来，还以为重新来到这个世界。

正如生命，本来就不知怎么来，也不知将怎么去，如此遥远地神秘，让我始终惊叹。

差之毫厘

细微之处，有的如四则运算的加减乘除，用错就答案全非；有的如代数的ABCD，再考究也无关痛痒。不是所有细节都能决定成败，什么是隐藏关键，什么是鸡毛蒜皮，不能混淆。判断不了，忽视了重要之处，却为真小事抓狂，结果恐怕很糟糕。

最终目的

打回家，提醒回我想要追求的最终幸福：简单的温馨。纵使现在应当做的是闯荡江湖增长见识，我不会让自己模糊本末；正如追求财富，不过是达致优质生活的手段。

想起一个同事，在一行字前凝视叹望。那行字，是“顾家的男人，没出息”。我深不以为然。别人没有眼光，又何必为争取狭窄视野的人的认同而烦忧。我认为他教导出出色的子女，伟大得很。

而我，闯荡在外，前方长路仍是遥遥漫漫。

几号巴士

瞻望天空，细瞄灰云层间的透光。人在车内坐着前进，却感受着窗外的风。旁逝的风景，永远留不住，只留下浅忆。该到站下车换不同号的巴士，我还未选好目的，身旁的脚步却早已纷纷匆匆。是否都是，匆匆上车，又匆匆下车？搭不完所有不同号的巴士，什么样的选择，有什么样的转折。每一段路线，有每一段的曲直。我和命运，究竟谁在操纵谁呢？