Tough weeks ahead

It's always hard to face the music but I am closer to concede that the errors exist in the system design are fatal and cast serious doubt on getting the "reasonable" results. How much will it affect my FYP grade I wouldn't know, but certainly it makes me all at sea now.

After a short period of enjoyment, the fear comes back with greater magnitude. I am a bit depressed now but I can only force myself to fight till the bitter end. These two weeks will be critical. How am I going to pass every day in between I wouldn't want to imagine, I just hope I can get all the luck that I need. If the doom is destined to come, then I would have no other choice but to prepare mentally for the worst scenario.

I've noticed that if I am angry then I will talk nonsense here because of excessive energy, if I am depressed then I will go to bed due to lack of spirit. I am trying very hard not to let the demonic voice resonant again around my heart. When it recurs, my system will down for minutes. I call it my "mental disorder" although it may sound too serious. Just because I know how weak could I be.

Let's hope.